Xisayo 陈XINYAN

When you're gone

Alright i'm back. stopped watching dramas for awhile, decided listening some songs and surf net, so i'm here blogging. I'm still looking for jobs, but meantime rot at home everyday or just go out, it may seems abit no life -.- but what to do ? i'll realy go find work after itfair. ohya i'm working this upcoming fair again. stopped march's so working this june. whooop this time round panasonic ideas for life not bad ah, and my Ahjojo is working with me too, thats the best damn thing... super long didn't work and have fun together with her :D Mum is going malaysia on the 10th june. and don'tknow when she will bear to come back SG, jitao SIAN mum not at home father work till 10PM, lonely girl @ bedok. I wanted to watch so many movies D: maybe tomorrow kungfu panda!! hehe i shall off lappy soon.... i'll sleep early even though i don't have work, can't keep over turning my own body clock. Yawn Goodnight (:

You were everything everything that i wanted, We're supposed to be all we wanted

Hopefully i'm watching this movie today, And Fast And furious5!

Ohye, I'm like finally back in blogging. Currently i'm working at Kseng Spare Parts as a Assistant Admin. But i'm resigning end of This month is my last day. hehehe! So now i don't even know what's my planning next. Sending resume in to alot of office but yet my resume still not done yet -.- Hopefully i'll get a job by next month and might be working this upcoming june itfair! ji excited yi xia lei.... 2more months to my 18th and i'm so excited and i can throw my IC to 7-11's! ohya and i'm no longer working at cine already. 6months working there abit can't bear but overrall it's still my fault can't blame i'm happy working there by the way. i'm so bored in my office D: nothing for me to do lei, HO la i shall stop typing because i don't even know what am i typing all SINGLISH D: i'll post next time!

Take care of my heart, i've all left with you

You don't even know what is love, if you love someone you won't leave your love hanging there and shed any of her tears. somehow you just don'tknow how to treat your love right. Someday if she left you, don't regret that you didn't treat her right and wanted her to give you a second chance  because we girls ain't stupid for you to fool over and over again, right? sometimes we girls need your concern and pampered too, don't ask the girl to give in as much as she can when you yourself know that you can't give her back as much as she give in

Feel like posting my heart-cries out, i'm thinking so much now, but when i clicked on post suddenly my mind went blank the photo on top it's 3years ago i used to be thinking how great if i'm still young , the naive me the childish girl and the world stupid-est girl but for stupid and childish i think i'm still like that LOL wtf ! no one will ever know how's me inside right inside my heart because i don't even dam know what happen to me, like this song from nelly - just a dream it goes like ~ I was thinking bout her thinking you thinking bout us what we gonna be, but i open my eyes and realize it was only just a dream. Yea it was only just a dream, something i dreamt about lasttime thinking that you'll be coming back right beside me you end up you didn't. so shall not post those emotional things ohyea yesthday work till 12am, cab to 500plus's mac and met felicia get my meal and lucas called so him,glenn and edwin came. slack-ed at mac eat eat eat~ walk-ed back to my block wait-ed for priscilla and went up to lucas's house and start our drinking session everything is fun though and play-ed games whooooopppp went home at around 5am while the rest idk because my house it's just lucas's place upstairs ! LOL reach-ed home slept till 12pm and woke up prepare and went for work boss reach-ed at 4pm plus and end work at 11, my beloved vera and her guy came and find me! so went down to koufu after my work, had some girls talk then around 11.30 it's stil lraining heavily outside so decided to ask boss if want to lobang me home and boss agree with it, so waved goodbye to vera and her guy, help-ed boss to close shop then, we left cine at around 12.30am went to geylang for frog porridge and had crab too (Y) damm awesome i swear loving it man (Y) love supper with bosses !! then reach home at around 2plus wash my mountain clothes when i didn't wash like 5days and the clothes is in piles already, LOL k i shall offline now! tomorrow there's so much people will be at cine! so happy, i guess i won't be that lonely tomorrow ! time check 3.21AM ok! need to get my ass out from my lappy's table and stick my ass onto my bed, LOL

When there's no more you, what am i gonna do ? when there's no more you to bring me thru, sorry i can't forget about you

somehow i found this thru my lappy when i was random web-camming as it's written, it's lastyear, and i miss my bangs !

So yup today was my off day and went to joan's house see her prepare till 3 and left her house train to bugis and went to iluma for arcade and then LALA came, play some arcade and next head to bugis juction for my lunch ate pepper lunch with LALA and joan seeing us eat, then after our pepper lunch chongyi came our turn to see joan and him eating, some inside jokes* then  LALA and i decided to walk around bugis then she bought her shoes, walk around and soon joan and chongyi finish their food then decided to went town, reach orchard, wisma first as chongyi wanted to see his formal at G2000 then there is a G2000 but its for female LOL then walk-ed over to fareast walk around and settle ourself at Han's lepak there for almost two hours joked dam alot and i'm super lame i know gonna maintain someday LOL soon gary came sent LALA to bus-stop and LALA took bus 5 and us, i not sure LOL head over to dhoby ghuat walk-ed over to rochor bean-curd for supper then walk over to bugis walk pass pool fushion and decided to have a pool game after pool then photo hunt, LOL after everything me and joan cab home while chongyi and gary chiong to bus-top and take their last bus, Laughs cab to joan's house and suddenly it's raining heavily ==" so slack at joan house downstairs chit-chats heart to heart talk till the sky stop the cries, say bye to her and walked home. reach home at around 1AM plus, and now i've gonna wait till my phone charge till 90% then i can sleep gonna really maintain my bodyclock and hell. cny is coming suddenly i'm not happy as before

I write my own life in a story book, not you or other one else, i control my own life what i want to be in the future but you or anyone else can't decide so dude stop thinking that you can change my life, i won't be killing myself because of just a mistake, and you YES YOU you're just one of my stupid mistake i made in the past and is you letting me fall down and make myself have to stand up alone from this i know you're not part of me, i won't ask you to get lost now, but you're not happy with me ? just get lost dude, in my story book i don't intend to write you down, anyway (:

It's not about the pain you had
But sometimes you've gonna take all the pain to
Just to gain something you really craved for
And I made lots of mistakes in my past.
But if you judge me on what I did in my past,
Then you don't belong in my future.

So i'm back (YYYY) , Woke up at 12.30 LOL luckily people did spam call to me, prepare and head to cine, met kelvin.L for lunch and his working outside for the ps3 event dam relax siah, sit there just to see the white lambo sports car nia, and it's dammmmm CHIO ! and his pay her hour $10, dam good just to see the car and he earned $120 a day, anw it's just a day HAHHA, boss came at around 5.30PM start setting up the stall and evening part not much people work work work ~ saw weiming and vera and her guy come and find me supa happy  (Y) ! then around 8-10plus and thats dam busy period ! and super happy, sold 2 pieces or $118 cases and each k ! LOL haolian only and yup, end work at around 11, felicia also end work at 11 , then we train back to bedok and decided to had our supper at market 85, bus 222 there and had our supper, she's so sweet ! lol yup after supper slack at a conner and talk so many things out, whooooooop then she walked home with me then she walk home herself ohh so sweeeet LOL and now i'm dam high now, because today i drank 3cans of redbull, LOL redbull really gives me WINGS siah, nb now i wana sleep so redbull, please keep your wings away, HAHA okay gonna contiue my drama already, gonna post when i've the feel to blog, Goodnight people time check 3.02AM now ):

You here tell me iloveyou, but there you're telling another girl/guy iloveyou too, what that shows ? You're flirting or you got a big heart to love another one ?

Once, I asked a kid, "What is love?"
The kid answered, " Love is when a puppy licks your face."
I laughed ..
but later he added, And looked serious "even after when you left him alone all day, but he'll still be by yourside.

Then the kid said : See not only you all know what is love hor

we children also got PUPPY LOVE and is very the serious in it

Whooooooop, yesthday woke up at around 12plus, went market with father get a little of cny stuffs had brunch and went home sleep again as i don't really have enough sleep, woke up at around 4plus went prepare and had dinner outside with parents then walked to joan's house nua awhile and head out train to orchard met chongyi at cityhall but suspossed to meet him at bugis platform but both me and joan was too engloss in iphone's game LOL then head to 313 and chongyi had his dinner at B3 foodmarket , around 7.30 walked to cine and catch seasons of the witch @ 7.40PM, atfirst didn't know that chongyi had booked tickets online and planned to pysho joan go shopping instead of movie but... then went in starting the show was already awesome (Y) i shall rate it 3.5/5 ! movie ended at around 9 plus and so we decided to go mustafa located at farrer park, LOL such a joke, treain down to mustafa and shop around and there is bloody BIG and you can really get what you want, perfume are cheaper then outside i guess and we stayed there for like 1 and half hour, LOL power (Y) next train down to sengkang walk to a coffee shop and joan and chongyi packet food and gary came, walked to don'tknow what CC i think it's at sengkang west and some wulu places with MAC 24/7 siah, i can hardly see a soul actually, LOL so yup settle down at some cafe with the cafe Closed, ate their supper chit-chats then walk infront and sit down on the floor, play games, i love playing, i had never and i have ever game, it's like dam funnnnn lost drink lost drink, LOL and the very last game we played was true or dare, true nothing fun about it was the dare, done alot stupid stuffs,(Y) so we left there around 3am ? wave goodbye to chongyi and gary and cab home with joan, so here i go reached home slept. today went to cine but boss ask me to go back, as usual went home get some rest and ended using lappy now, i'm so bored now so waiting for that regina to online, these few days i'm thinking my future what am i gonna be ? K i don'twana think so much

If you had love somebody put your hands up,

i raise my hands up so high just want you to look at it,

and now i looked back everything seems to be a dream something i had dreamt before

ComeCome Baby come be my toyfriend let me play with you

So I'm like back in blog :D I'm susposed to be busy but i'm not really, ever since i'm working for this job i'm like enjoying life my didn't work and get paid (: Shiok huh ? but when there's work stress die me and tired like mad but nevermind i'm quite happy with my job and my bosses although sometimes we do have conflict but they consider not bad already ! Life don't seems to be good now as i can't really see my future anymore going to higher nitec there's like 0.01% of hope ? LOL i'm really planning very hard to find a future for myself serious, i really realize at singapore without that printed paper i'm seriously just nothing can't get high pay and gonna work long hours not like those at office shake leg pay also higher then mine tmd, this is world reality ==" and it really sucks ttm nb, i'm watching JU JIA BINTUAN Now and i just love hongkong dramas they always like to surprize me with their super nice story lol hao and now it's 2.12AM CHANXINYAN really gonna offline soon nextday there's still work omg poorthing :D but nvm nvm money most important and tuesday i'm off ! gonna head down to bugis with my beloved JOJO for some shopping ! i really love going out with her, anw i spend my day with her at PP and EastCoast ain't we sweet ? LOL She really never fail to make my day fill with laughters this one KONFIRM NO LIE one, 15years and counting on and on ! and ofcos i love my YAPYAP too ! omg suddenly i feel that i'm so blissed ! WhoopWhoop

我的心…突然好想你…

好想现在就抱着你，亲亲你，告诉你我是多么的爱你…

好想你现在就在我身边，让我依偎在你的怀里，深深的睡去，明早醒来眼前看到的第一个就是你…

好想你现在就在我面前，那样我的视线里将会只有你，因为你一直是我的唯一…

好想被你握着手走在热闹的大街上，向所有人展示我的幸福。而你也要答应我，牵着我一直走下去，再也不要放开…

好想现在就可以触摸到你，不再会用气急败坏的声音说我杀了你，却无法感受到你的温度，一切的一切也只能成为空想…

你总说想我，你总说想抱抱我，亲亲我，我又何尝不是？多希望我真的能从视频那爬出去，爬到你跟前，让我知道你的温度，让我确实的感受到你的存在…

一直说很想结婚，就是因为结婚了就可以天天和你在一起，那该是一件多么美的事情阿…每次听你的声音，都好想自己可以飞奔到你的面前，告诉你我真的好想你…

你总说学业为重，我知道你是为我好，所以我只能克制住自己，你总是说不要以你为重点，可是亲爱的，我无法控制我的心，我只能以你为中心…

亲爱的，你总说要乖，我真的很听你的话，真的很乖…只不过，我实在无法克住想你的心…

亲爱的，夜深了，我们睡吧…

我知道虽然我们分隔两地，但我们的心肯定是在一起的…

我知道在我想你的同时，你也在想我…

亲爱的，等我们见面的时候，就让我抱抱你吧…

我现在好想抱抱你，在你耳边轻声的说，我爱你…

真的好想你亲爱的，我要你好好的，因为我爱你…

I MISS MY PHONE LIKE HOW I MISS YOU

Hi, I'm back Yup sad period now lost phone somemore is iphone 4 fcuking curse those 3youngster kana car bang . Today POA final paper at first infront infront i still okay with it till behind some don't even know how to do alright tomorrow last paper BEO ! Confirm gonna flung the paper LOL ~ Will be working full time at cine 5working days ! so anyone are cine-ster can come and visit me ! Whooo ~ will be working at a pushcart selling handphone cases, worked for 4months hope everything will be fineee ! Alright won't be blogging often just contact me thru FACEBOOK ! Bye !

04112010 (:

I'm thinking about you , and you're thinking about her ~

Ohyeaaa . i'm onlined and decided to blog before i sleep . so today texted quite A number of humans and see who's gonna date me out . but ans come out is either no reply or not free , but siying is my life saver (Y) . K . prepare at around 1plus and 2plus head out . had some world ware 3 with family last night. long story . so yup meet siying,justin and zhanyang at payalebar first and they come in took train to bugis, walk to pasta manina and settle there for our lunch . it was yummy ! wheeeee and siying introed me a new pasta taste not bad (: next head to iluma and decided to catch some movie. the Q was quite long so end up we bought tickets for UNSTOPPABLE at 5.40PM , while there's still time walk to bugies street wanted to look for asther but she's not there and she's at another side of bugis near simlim . so go and look for her see clothes , OMG ! and i told asther wait i save 100bucks confirm spend all at your shop !!! wheee. so slack at her shop till 5.20 and 4 of us walk back to iluma . went in the theate and soon the movie start , starting though was a boring show because it's like only a trains but middle it's like dam interesting i watch till my heart almost pop out ! and eyes too (Y) ! i rate it 4/5 ! so the movie ends at 7plus and the 4 of us head to the mrt station and take train . first zhanyang alight at kallang , next siying alight at paya lebar , me bedok and justin tamp i guess. and head home and i'm abit hungry so decided to cook maggie so now tranfering songs to my phone and watch some hk dramas and i'll head to bed very the soon ! Tomorrow will be Pjt's report cum ppt's duedate so gonna wake up early go school at 8AM and finish up every undone ! K offline soon Bye.

In a relationship, honesty & trust must exist.

If they don’t, there’s no point of loving.

So if you can’t afford to be honest,

Stay single ok ! Dont go into a r/s and hurt others.